Monday, June 20, 2011

The real Father's Day

It's a Sunday once again. Apparently, today's the real father's day and not last Sunday, which I thought was- hence this blog entry. lol My family doesn't usually spend Father's Day with my Dad because he's away most of the time for work. My dad's a seaman so most of the time, he's out there conquering the ocean. :) I love my dad and we always get to have our bonding sessions- just me and him whenever he's home. If you look at it, of the 24 years my mom and dad have been a married couple, their time spent physically together is even less than 10 years! The most vacation my dad gets nowadays is 1-2 months. There were times he was here for just about a month, or less than a month. I don't like for us to be apart most of the time but that's how my dad earns a living for us and soon enough, I'll be able to understand that. (That's a little off topic. LOL)

Anyway, Happy Father's Day to your dads! <3

Here are the pictures of what this day was like for me and my family:

ME! :-)
 Church kids and fellows:







My beautiful mom. Acting also as a dad when my father's away for work. :)

ME again. hehe








Monday, June 13, 2011

Woven In

I forgot the exact date of when this was taken but I'm pretty sure it was just last week. I think we had a church meeting and went to do a few errands... grocery shopping, i guess. Recently I've been wearing skirts because of the hot weather. I love the top given to me by my mom- she bought it in Davao when she visited my dad there. The belt I'm using is a scarf that has been my fave to use. At the end of this day though, I opted to wear my flip-flops since it's really a hassle driving in heels! LOL



top: gift from my mom/skirt: SM/bag: Cherokee/ wedges: So FAB!

Love this back detail



If you notice though, the bag, shoes and my top have one thing in common: they all have woven-in designs.


Sunday, June 12, 2011

Happy Father's Day!

Another Sunday post...

As usual, my family and I would go to the house church that my mom founded and head out to lunch/dinner after since we end our service late most of the time. Today's weather is really hot and I didn't feel like wearing jeans even if I wanted to. I opted to wear a skirt that my boyfriend gave me (thanks for the Forever 21 goodies, love! <3) so I can move freely and not feel icky and sweaty. ;) After our church service, we had our super late lunch/early dinner at Red Ribbon.

Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there!










My sister and the kids
 Now on to our lunch/dinner:

Chocolate mousse: my dessert

My mom's black forest

Mom and brother

SISTERS.




P.S.
Happy Father's Day to my dad who's not here physically. I know you have to be away so you could provide us with the best. Thank you for everything. We love you, Papa! <3

Outfit post:
Bench Top/Forever 21 skirt/So FAB! heels/Forever 21bag :) 





Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Gone Too Soon

Flashback:

The year was maybe 2002 or 2003- I was in high school. I was hanging out at Chaiz Cafe with my then- boyfriend and a few friends when a chinita girl my age approached me and asked: "Hi, did you go to Sun Yat Sen before?" (Sun Yat Sen High School is well, obviously a Chinese school that catered to preschool, elementary and high school. I went there for my preschool education.) I told her yes and she asked me if I recognize her friends since they still go to that school and I politely said no that I only went there for preschool. She then smiled and her eyes sparkled as she did. She then said "nice meeting you" and I said the same thing. That time on, I remembered her. We used to have a picture together, I think before or after our school performance that time. She was the chinita girl who had short black hair with full bangs and always wore a headband. Her name is Lenny Ann Celiz. Since then, whenever we see each other, we both made it a point to greet each other.

Forward to year 2011

I forgot when I joined facebook but since I joined, my former classmates, relatives abroad, and even friends abroad have been communicating with me and it's a great way to keep in touch. Lenny and I have been communicating through facebook and even got each other's numbers although we'd rarely really text. Facebook has always been either a bearer of good news or bad news. I never thought I'd receive one through it two Mondays ago, May 30, 2011. I saw a friend of mine comment on Lenny's facebook a sad-faced emoticon. I wanted to know what happened because Lenny ha s always been a bubbly and cheery person. When I checked her profile, I saw everything. I was getting really cold, I was trembling and I was almost about to cry. I ran to my mom and told her the news. We were both shocked. I immediately asked my friend what happened to Lenny. Although it would've been a bad joke, I hoped it was just a joke. I didn't have the details of her death but I immediately asked where the wake was, etc. I didn't know what to do or think. It was surreal. I said to myself "No, she can't be! She just turned 24! She's healthy. She even had a trip with her boyfriend to Boracay before he left the country for work." I was in denial. I was heartbroken. We weren't really close but she's a friend and it hurts to lose a friend forever. That night I cried so hard before going to sleep. I wanted to ask God "Why so soon?" but I know I don't have the right to ask that because whatever that has happened, it's His will. I know  our lives are just God's gifts and it can be taken back. I just resolved to praying for her eternal rest and peace, as well as for her family and loved ones to stay strong. I went to her wake one time with my sister and I was able to held back the tears but I cried a little after talking to one of her sisters. My sister and I stayed there for about an hour I think before heading home.

I never usually wake up very early unless I have an appointment. This morning, is Lenny's wake. I woke up early but I had a sluggish morning, plus it was raining. I went to the wake with my mom who wasn't able to visit during the wake. I saw my former classmates from preschool and it was a very bittersweet reunion. It was a really sad day, close to depressing. The image of her dad looking over and kissing her coffin is still very vivid in my head. Add to that, her boyfriend was really crying so much, I felt like he was about to faint from all the crying. I was good with holding back my tears but when I saw her father looking over and kissing her coffin, I gave in. I cried. It was still painful- the pain is still fresh. Her boyfriend was really sweet. When it was his turn to view Lenny for the last time, he said "I love you so much!" even though his voice was already breaking. Before Lenny was finally laid to rest, he would touch the glass of the coffin, as if touching her face. My mom and I saw him hold Lenny's yearbook photo and hugging it. Although it was very sad, it was still filled with so much love.




P.S.
I didn't want to make this entry without our photo from preschool but I've searched our 2 houses and couldn't find it. My mom told me maybe it got lost in the flood, June of '08.

Few pics from the burial (taken with my phone):

Mom and I


Grave site, this is where the mass was also held

Her classmates from college with balloons
Lenny's picture: this is how she looked like before (preschool) except no more headbands ;)
Lenny Ann Celiz (photo from her Facebook)

Lenny, I know you've gone home to our Creator and I know you're happy. I hope you know how much your family, friends, and loved ones love you. Thank you for the friendship. Thank you for  being the first one to reach out to me way back in high school. We'll definitely miss you. ♥ ♥