Freeze

Posting something and backing out because I'm chicken shit like that. My drafts are full of promise, but I do not want to cross where lines are drawn. I'd love to have my thoughts published, know people feel the same way so I don't get weirded out or doubt myself. I'm always telling myself that "it's okay, it's normal." I'm way over the age limit for a qurter life crisis and I am not under crisis! I wish my thoughts would cooperate. However reality is a bitch. And boy am I stubborn. Living in my make-believe seems to be a way to cope out of something... out of life. But of course, it's only temporary. Oh how I'd rather live in a book, a poem, a song. I wish someone could immortalize me even my momentary weakness, or temporary glory.

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A New Change

In a few days, my life will drastically change. I cannot just think of myself alone. I have somebody else to consider. I cannot make my own decision because everything should be mutual/conjugal. I have to submit myself to everything... wholeheartedly. 

But I am not dreading this change. Scared, a little bit. Things will definitely change. But I am looking forward to my new life. I have been happy for almost 8 years and I am confident that I will still be happy for the rest of my life. 

Xx,

L❤

Something's brewing...

Date... Check!

Venue... Check!

Invitees... Check!

Giveaways... Check!

Suppliers... Semi-check!

Been going through a list of what-to-do, what-nots and all other things in between. Something's up. Update soon. ❤ Oh, by the way... Hello, June! :) 

Xx,

L

Pre-Mother's Day Thoughts

Mother's Day has been one of the occasions that my family always celebrate. It's an occasion we can express how we love and care for our mothers. My siblings and I would always buy a greeting card and if we'd have extra cash, we throw in a little present for our mom. 

My mom is not perfect, but knowing her all these years has made me realize that I do not need a perfect mother. What I need is someone who is loving, caring and understanding- and my mom's all that and so much more. Sure, we've had disagreements and arguments and my teenage self would make a big deal out of it but now I'm just thankful that we have the same level of respect and understanding that we do not allow a little misunderstanding get in the way of our relationship.

As time goes by, I have had a new appreciation for my mom and the effort she puts in to keep our family together despite trying times. And as I am about to embark on a new life soon, I truly am grateful that my mom still loves me even if I make a lot of mistakes and made her cry. Moms are truly God's blessing to us children.

Advance happy mother's day to all the moms out there! ❤ 

Xx,

L

Professional Crossroad

While driving earlier to work, I kept thinking about my professional life/career. I love love my job and the company I'm working for. As it is one of the best and leading companies, it is such an honor to work here. Unfortunately as I am just a project hire, there's this slim chance of me being regularized (ever) and of course, be given a raise. I have been working here for a little over a year. I  have ups and downs but I manage pretty well. If I did not have fun as much as I am now, I would have been gone a long time.


As a worker or employee, you would want to seek a better opportunity. Far more better and greater than the last one. I am still holding on as there is a new project and there might be a chance I get promoted or be regularized with full benefits. While I'm all up for that, there's this long grueling process of proving yourself to everyone that you're worth that promotion so to speak. I really want the promotion and I know they're eyeing me because I'm a pioneer employee. The thing is, I'm not that motivated to really get it. Slowly, I've started to come to work early and initiated meetings and calibrations, etc but that's that. Well, we'll see how things would go. I haven't found an absolute or formidable fallback yet but I'll take each day as it is and test the waters then.

Xx,
L

Is It Summer Yet?

Hi Guys!


It's the end of the month and tomorrow, we'll be waking up to a new month! This makes me realize that Summer is nearly over and I haven't had a vacation or a beach trip. I think it's because we already had one or two beach trips a few months ago before my dad left. We went to Roxas City(2-3 hours drive from our house) and stayed at my fave beach resort and stayed there overnight. I went with my parents, siblings, aunt, cousins and our fiances. It was a lot of fun since it was the first time in a long while that we got to go as a family. The second was when we went to another beach resort in Tigbauan (a little over an hour from Iloilo City).

Still, I'm hoping and wishing for even just a day at the beach. I really love going to the beach no matter how hot the weather is. The sound of the waves give a feeling of calmness and most of the time help me sleep better. I used to daydream about living on the beach side with my glass house, just like the ones I used to see on Laguna Beach or The Hills (Kristin Cavallari's house). So for now, we do with what we have. I'm planning on going to the beach next month so we'll see how that goes. Anyway, for now, I have to catch some z's because I would need to be well rested since I'm attending a co-worker's wedding tomorrow and you know I love weddings! :) Will post about it tomorrow. For now, goodnight world!


How's your summer so far?

xx,
L

Running out of excuses

Today, I have run out of excuses.


I tried to walk/run/jog again today after work and only reached about 1.9 miles so that's a little under 2 kilometers. I finished in less than 30 minutes and I felt so tired after that. I realized that I have not exercised in a very long time (hence the intense accumulated weight gain).

I usually put things off like this because I'd rather relax after work, and by relax means lounging in the sofa and watching reality shows which I'm a sucker for! I used to be so skinny that my dad scolds me from time to time because I keep buying new jeans because the others/ old ones are a little loose on me.

Fast forward to 2011 when I thought I was at my biggest/heaviest. I wanted to try going to the gym but I finally decided not to because I'm usually super lazy and I am not that religious in following exercise routines. Right now, I am at my heaviest. I have been wanting to enroll myself into a gym but I'm still keeping that as an option. For now, I will be running/walking/jogging not necessarily everyday but I will try and make it three times a week to see how I will fare, with additional cardio and endurance training at home. I hope I can finally have myself commit to such a tedious process. I have allowed myself to do that a few months back.

The only thing I want to see going down is my weight.

Goodnight!

P.S.:

No more binge eating! 😊

Swift

It's November already! I am nearing 25 and it's freaking me out a little bit. Being 25 gets me nearer 30- the age I fear the most. Haha! It seems like I slept on the night of October 31st and now, we're a week into the month! How time flies! I wish time would go a little bit slower. Sometimes, I like to just sit and think of what happened to me in a week's time and I could see how fast people come and go; how fast events happen; how fast the days go by. Every time I think of it it wears me out, I feel tired.

Hello, October!

Can I just say that the months have been passing us by like a whirlwind! CRAAZZY! Now October's here and the first week just passed by. Oh how time flies! Next thing I know I'm on a plane going somewhere far... *wink* Anyway, this post is about how my first week of October went through photos.

October 1st, Monday. Monday was basketball day. I went to watch PJ's first game with my sister and his sister.

Dordie, Me, and Doc Jet :)

Go BLUE!  PJ's team lost though.

October 2. Tuesday, no photos. Well, I was a little busy making slides for my presentation the following day.

October 3, Wednesday. Day of presentation and calibration meeting, visit from head bosses from Manila and dinner with family.

My sister and mom

with Cousins Cha and Joan

October 4, Thursday. The weather was crazy. And we were all lazy at the office. After my shift I went to meet with my mom and cousins again.

Elaisha's. Had breakfast here with my workmate, Fatima. It was pouring!!!

Intense rain juxtaposed to a beautiful sunset. 

ootd. LOL 

My cousin who wants to be a kung fu master by doing a yoga pose.  LOL

October 5, Friday. Yesterday was "beauty day" for me and my sister, we had our hair colored. :) 

Ready to become a RED HEAD! 

My hair's supposed to be all burgundy but... it's virgin hair so it looks brown! :P

October 6, Saturday. Today's weather is kind of crazy as well. Instead of going home around noon, I arrived at 2PM since I got stuck in the office waiting for the rain to stop! Today was however, the day I updated my software. I'm just getting used to ios6!

Is it the best there is?

How did your first week of October, go? 

Kisses,

larraineBee

Not My Day

When I woke up this morning, I had a terrible feeling... My throat was so itchy and I had exaggerated runny nose! I have been nursing this flu the whole day. Good thing I didn't have fever, like I normally do. I'm doing as much as I can so I can recover quickly because its super difficult to work when your head is about to explode, you're coughing like there's no tomorrow and sniffing thereafter! Sounds like "tunog tao", I swear!

The day could've ended just fine. However, as I am about to sleep, I have another mishap being the clumsy girl that I am. I was bending over to put something in the trash can and accidentally my eye hit the end of the hanger, placed on my closet door! My left eye now hurts and burns a little bit! Why did this have to happen? I'm so scared! I don't care if I get a cut or bruise in my arm or leg because both can still function after recuperation. The eyes, however, cannot. Once your eyes are "destroyed", bruised, etc you can say goodbye to your eyesight! I cannot imagine my life without my sense of sight! How can I drive? How will I be able to see people I'm talking to? How will I be able to work? I don't want to miss out on life.


Moral lesson: be careful... EXTRA CAREFUL!


Goodnight,
larraineBee ❤

Hello, Monday.

So I'm here at work and contemplating on what to do since I've done most of what I should. I'm currently here in our sales office, which I do every Monday so I can report to my boss. I actually like my boss. She's really nice and accommodating, also down to earth. She does not drive me nuts when she needs reports from me. I feel like I'm just cruising through this, which I kind-of like. But what I really love about my job is when I'm on site- construction site, that is. It gives me a different high especially when documenting progress of every house that's being built up to the time I have to turn the unit over to the owner. The first month I felt like I was a fish out of water. I was so clueless on what I needed to do. Now, I've been working for three months and going up to four and it feels like I've been doing this for a very long time. There may be times that I'm struggling with myself because there are times when I feel like I'm just dragging myself to work but I still like what I do. I still like that I have client/customer interface from time to time and most especially, I love that I'm on the field- literally, well,  construction field that is. Sometimes though, because my work does not entail heavy e-mails and physical work, I get really bored. Just like today. But today is Monday, everybody doesn't like Monday... I think. I need to always psyche myself so I can do even better. I just love it that even if I'm not really that trained in this field, I still get to please my boss and she recognizes my effort and always compliments me. Maybe that's the reason why I don't mind being stuck at this job even if my salary is just so-so.

Hello, Monday!

How did your Monday go?

I Miss Traveling

It's been a long time since I last went to a place to travel. I usually go to Bacolod/Talisay (Negros Occidental) but for work. I want to go some place where I can just relax and admire the view and of course, throw in a little shopping! The last time I traveled was to Manila, March this year and it was just for a week, I think. No fancy places- I just shopped! HAHA. The side-trip was when we went to Antipolo for a short while and went back to the city. I kind-of missed that feeling. I usually like to witness scenic places and be amazed at how magical a place can be but I do whatever I can to enjoy with whatever I can afford. LOL Although I have to admit, I kind-of not help shopping when I'm traveling! :D


Sorry, I just dug up photos from my slr's SD card and saw pictures of my vacation in Manila.


Photos coming up! ;)

self-photo at Banapple, Katipunan

PJ and I outside Banapple

Super Yummy fries with Nacho beef at Five Cows, Trinoma

Indulged again on Nail polish! ;)

At a Park, somewhere in Makati (Sorry, I forgot the name)

Greenbelt at Night

First time to try Gelatissimo and LOVED IT.

The Fort, Taguig

Copying poses

Strolling High Street

Photo-op at the BHS sign

Beautiful Art Installations

Spot Me ;)

Doc Jet enjoying her gelato! 

going back...

EASTWOOD//CUBAO//PASAY

Road picture

Church outside MOA.

That's all for now. Update again, soon! 

Good morning/night! It's 12:41AM here, 19th of July. I have to be at work by 8:00AM. Yikes! Byeeee! :) I need to rest! 

Kisses,

larraineBee <3

Woven In

I forgot the exact date of when this was taken but I'm pretty sure it was just last week. I think we had a church meeting and went to do a few errands... grocery shopping, i guess. Recently I've been wearing skirts because of the hot weather. I love the top given to me by my mom- she bought it in Davao when she visited my dad there. The belt I'm using is a scarf that has been my fave to use. At the end of this day though, I opted to wear my flip-flops since it's really a hassle driving in heels! LOL

top: gift from my mom/skirt: SM/bag: Cherokee/ wedges: So FAB!

Love this back detail

If you notice though, the bag, shoes and my top have one thing in common: they all have woven-in designs.